by Ex Satie » Mon Nov 03, 2008 9:42 am
Canada- Challenger Qualies vs Gastao Elias
Well that was fun…I really don't remember the last time I was bageled indoors. Well I guess that just means I was long overdue. It's amazing how when you're facing a guy ranked 508 in the world, everything seems so daunting. Every ball you hit seems like it should have been hit harder, heavier, and closer to the line. You think you have to play like Federer or something. Then you lose the first set at love and you think to yourself, "WTF!! Steady mate. Ease the sheet. Breathe and play your game…you're not Federer so stop trying to play like him!!"
After the bagel was toasted and served, I calmed down and started holding serve. I even got to a break point at 3-4 to go up 5-3 and serve it out to bring it to a third! Of course Elias hits an incredible on the run backhand down the line laser, which he picked up from just a few inches off the court to stave off the break and eventually hold. Then I go up 30-love on my serve at 4-all and proceed to get broken by a combination of double faults and a few unforced errors. No worries, he still has to hold for the match and I did just get break point on his last serve game. I go up 0-30. He hits an ace to take it to 15-30. He misses his first serve and I, like an overzealous jerk, go for the WHOPPER inside-in forehand on the second serve and it basically hits the curtain on the fly. HUGE opportunity…squandered…30-all. Here I manage to pull out the drop shot from a few feet behind the baseline and of course it hits the net…not that it mattered, because he was there anyway as I hit it from behind the baseline!! I felt like I had just chugged a Blue-Raz icy from the massive brain freeze I apparently was suffering from…perhaps it was the cold Canadian air? 40-30…match-point…he serves out wide, I play the backhand cross and he stabs the volley down the line and that's all she wrote. 0-6, 4-6. (Elias lost to the 3rd seed today 7-6(4), 6-7(9), 1-6)
Every player out there who's had to play someone ranked way above them is familiar with the pressure of that situation. It's amazing how fast you'll start playing. Racing through what just happened in the last point. Racing to the next point. Racing to the locker room to throw your bag into the trash after you inevitably lose the match you probably could have won had you kept things together better upstairs and paced yourself.
At the highest levels tennis is truly mostly mental. It takes a mental beast to stay calm and focused, stick to the game plan, and make the quick and vital adjustments at those critical moments during a match. You know how you know you've got problems mentally when you're playing so well that your opponent has absolutely no chance for survival, and then on the very next point you go for a drop shot from 10 ft behind the baseline…IDIOT! "Wow," you'll say to yourself, "Where the heck did that come from!? Why did I even go for that?"
The problem is inexperience. I just haven't played enough tournaments. The average player will play 35 tournaments per year. Guess how many I play a year…14. Yes, that's right…14 tournaments per year. That's lame. This is why I can't get a rhythm.
I've got the game, no one who knows anything about professional tennis will tell you otherwise, but my lack of funds bothers me to no end and has always been my Achilles heel. My insufficient funds syndrome has become chronic and prevents me from putting myself in these high level matches on a consistent basis. Without that I can't get the rhythm I need to progress. For example, Fall 2007 I played five weeks in a row in Mexico. The first two weeks I played horribly, the third was okay, the fourth was good, and the fifth was great and I beat the highest ranked guy at the event…Miguel Gallardo-Valles (from Mexico) who at the time was ranked 474 in the world. Just as no two people are alike, nor are players. Some players warm-up for five minutes and they're good to go…others need to play for 45 minutes or an hour.
I'm not saying I need to play week after week after week, but I'd like to be able to play one calendar year with a full 35-tournament schedule. I'd also like to bring my coach, Jay Devashetty, with me so he can see me in tournament mode and not just in practice where there is no pressure to win. Everyone knows practice is not the same as competition. It just isn't. There is no substitute for tournaments. If you want to progress in tennis you need to play tournaments…as many as your mind and body can handle.
Tennis is a brutal game. It's not for the weary. It's truly a battle between your opponent and yourself. Eliminating yourself as an opponent is half the battle…and it is a war for anyone who strives to be the best. If you're just a recreational player and you've never tried to push yourself to your limits in anything, then you're probably not going to understand a word of this, but if you're like me, and you've got that unquenchable thirst for reaching the mountain top, then you know how intense things can become out there. It's what drives us. It's why Nadal is #1 now. He's got the thirst. It took a nearly six hour match on grass at Wimbledon to de-thrown King Federer, but Nadal did it. It was unbelievable. It was inspiring. No wonder TIME magazine included Nadal in the top 100 most influential men in 2008 (Obama is at the top).
So this is it for 2008. There are a few more events I could play (two Challengers in Pueblo and Cancun, Mexico), but I'm going to concentrate on trying to raise enough money to be able to play a full tournament schedule in 2009, because it's that important. I've realized from playing at the Pilot Pen and this Challenger that the best players have coaches with them and play 35 tournaments a year. There are simply too many players out there with that situation and for me to take it to the next level this is what needs to happen. I've said it from the beginning, but nobody seems to understand how critical financial backing is in tennis. It's a rich man's sport, and I am not rich enough!
If you guys enjoy these emails, find what I'm doing to be inspiring, or want me to "make it" then please think of people you know who have an affinity for tennis. Tell them about me and willboe.com, or have them email or call me. Let's do this together. I'll continue to put in the hard work on the court, in the gym and make all the necessary sacrifices; in return, I ask that you guys help me find that $100,000 I'll need to play a full 35 tournament schedule in 2009 and bring my coach along to as many events as possible. Considering that I've raised about $50,000 over the past two and half years, this is going to be a challenge, but something has to give…either I quit, or you guys step up and help me.
Currently, there are 351 people on this email list. If you guys each donate $285/yr = $23.75/month = 90¢/day to willboe.com until I make it to the point where I can pay my own way then maybe one day I'll be playing tennis on ESPN and you'll be able to turn to your friends and say, "I sponsored that guy!"
Bear in mind that not everybody on my email list has donated. Most haven't. Most can't afford to. Bottom line is this, give what you can. If you're a billionaire, donate $10,000/yr. If you're like my college roommates then donate $365/yr. Obviously we all live on different budgets, but just because you don't think $1 is going to be helpful, you're wrong! Every little bit helps (e.g. Obama and his $600,000,000 in online donations!!).
I'm not running for President, so I don't need 600 million dollars to fund a 22 month presidential campaign, but I am running to become a top 100 ATP player and I need sponsorship until I'm 250 in the world where the prize money is just good enough to break even...yeah, there's no money tennis. It's a problem. But it doesn't have to be a show stopper. Those of you who have seen me play know what I'm capable of, I just need legitimate sponsorship so I can get in gear, stay in gear, and shift up to higher levels.
And for those of you (Jeff) who think it's not possible, you're wrong! So stop with the negativity. It is possible! I've beaten guys ranked as high as 474 in the world and gone breakers with a guy ranked 250 with relatively no financial backing. All the players I know say I'm playing at a 500 or better in the world level, just need to put it all together. Players have called me "the biggest underachiever they've ever seen." Not that I'm proud of this reputation, but that means they know I'm capable of so much more. I know I am. People who watch me play know I am. I just need real sponsorship. Imagine if I had what I needed! What level would I be playing at then? Top 100? Top 10?? Impossible is nothing.
Heck if Bud Shultz (Bates' first All-American tennis player) can make it to 43 in the world after graduating…why can't I follow in his footsteps? I had a far superior college record than Buddy, so why couldn't I do the same on the pro level? I know I can. I just can't afford it…yet.
So, please, go to willboe.com and donate! It's a click of a button!
Think of it as one less Christmas present to worry about!
Au revoir à tantôt!
Will